My teaching job for this year has been in question all summer. My class, young 5's, didn't have enough students enrolled at the end of the school year. Only 1 student, in fact. The school board gave it until early July, if enough enrolled they would run the class. But not enough did, still only one, in fact. But the kindergarten was huge, so it will divided into 2 classes. I was invited to apply for the job, but it would also be opened to outside applicants. I am sure you can guess how that felt. (Not good.)
Interviews were finally set for this week Thursday night. I'm anxious about it, to say the least. I'm worried about having to interview again (it's been 5 years since I've interviewed for a job!). I'm worried about not getting the job and the feeling of failure that will go along with that. I'm scared I won't be able to teach this year with all my wonderful co-workers, whom I LOVE! But most of all, I'm worried about me not having an income. To the point that I wake in the middle of the night and worry for hour(s). It's just so stressful.
But Thursday night I should know. And while I am really looking forward to just knowing, I'm terrified of how deeply I will feel as a failure if I don't get the job.
So I guess I'll need a drink Thursday night. A drink to a new job or a drink to feel less like a failure.
I'll let you know how it turns out.
EDIT
Didn't get the job :(
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